When you know you have to move forward

It takes a lot of courage to  be brave enough to let go the shoulder that you have always lean on. I remembered every single things you said to me since we first met each other, and seriously I can't deny that even after a year of telling myself that I shouldn't behave like this, but still :



I really really miss you.

Every night all I dream of is board on a plane, take the bus and reach your university, and gives you whole lot of surprises. I do not actually care how much it costs me for the flight ticket, all I want to do is to get to see your face, sit on your bike, and you will bring me go anywhere that I want to go.

I miss those moments.

Guess why people always say you will hardly forget the one who makes you fall in love with him so much, and then at the end we can only be friends, or "best friends" like you said.

Friends said : You will find another one.

I do believe that at first, but in that one year time, 3 guys at once that totally disappoints me. Maybe I take things too fast, or maybe they are just playing with girl's feeling around.

I hate this. Really hate this. I think I won't fall in love at anytime soon.

I miss you. I hope you do too. :')

Surviving first month as LCP together with my EB team and whole LC

Sometimes when I woke up in the morning or before I sleep, I often questioned myself, why do I want to become LCP? why do I want to continue this journey with only 5 people in the team with me?

The answer will be :

I have gained so much from the LC. It's time for you to contribute back to the LC. I even thought of, when you get to shaped an individual into a better person through this organisation, isn't this will be good to our society, and thus, bringing a small impact time to time towards the whole world.

The world will literally change better when everyone stop whining and just do their part. :)

Opps sorry, I think I was a little dragged away from the title. HAHA. Yes, surviving the first month and never have thought of so fast it's already been a month. My fellow AIESEC friends laughed at me and say why do even bother to start countdown? You just only started your position for a month. I don't know why, but I just feel excited when I start to think of who will become my successor. My EB team are all very highly motivated and passionate people, I sincerely hope that they will keep this passion till the end of their term as an EB term 1213, and of course, whoever wish to take over my position and continue to create change to their surrounding :)

A note to my fellow EBs ,

Believe in yourself. Just keep believing on what you want to do, and the essential why. It will bring you to achieve more when you keep your beliefs.

Have faith towards yourself, and of course, your LCP (or mama if you wish to call me that) , have super faith in all of you. All of you will be able to achieve our LC vision and your personal vision together. 

Lots of love,

LCP 1213 aka Mama of the EB team 

P/s : Please ignore my bad skill in photoshop :P

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P/S : Emo 时告诉自己

"世间还有许多人事物等我们去挖掘，去探索，去珍惜...每个人都有自己的价值，也是无价宝.. 这人生的旅途里，莫就是寻找知道我们的价值，并真心珍惜我们的人...除了爱情，还有友情，亲情，社会，梦想及旅行...再说，让我们伤心哭泣的人，真的是我们想要陪伴在旁的人吗？"

Confusion and persistence

I forget what makes me ran for three times to become a LCP. I forget if at that time of application, did I seriously think of my studies. I have 8 law subjects and one thesis during third year.  I sincerely hope that, by taking up such huge responsibility, my VP elect can understand that do not rely me on too much. Be proactive and starts learning by themselves. It is okay for them to rely on me for the first 3 months, I will definitely passing down all my job step by step starting September onwards and fully leave it to juniors by December by having pipeline. I just hope things can goes like what I have planned, else breakdown easily >.<

GOOD LUCK KAR MAY! :)

心伤

我会宁愿选择没有见你，因为见了反而更伤心。

我不喜欢那种很想念一个人的感觉。:(

A news that shocked me till now

I had my lunch with my boss yesterday. I knew there must have something , but I didn't expect it will be this news and also it will be so fast.

When we finished our lunch and she walked me to the train station, suddenly she took out a green package and pass it to me. I was like : "eh not my birthday ah? apa ni? " She smile with her usual cute smile and said : now I give u this because u are the LCP elect!!!! Go back home and tell mama about this news! :D" My 1st response when I heard that is mind blank, and )$*(&$!^#*!%$! WTH???!!  I got elected? !!! The flash out curses of female LCP of LC UKM --- No bf, gain weight. I want to break the curse. I MUST!

Well, it is hard to believe I am leading LC UKM for the next term. Time management + stress Management + people management now!

Good Luck dear, you can do this :)

LCP interview

Unexpectedly, they ended my LCP interview in less than 2 hours time. And, I did not expect that the interview will be more to asking me about personal questions. I guess they must had a super long discussion on how to grill me before the interview starts. 

Anyway, before they ended my LCP interview, they said : "You have  A LOT to learn if you are elected." YES I KNOW! I guess I will be the one who have less knowledge among the elect team, IF I AM BEING ELECTED la. But that does not means I can't learn and then pick up and be the best out of the other! yay! positive spirit!

Well, that's all I guess. Result will be out within this week. If is destined to be mine, it will be. So left the worries to my LCP. HAHAHA.

Sign off. Adios :)